Job prospect

Im thinking of dipping my foot back into the job market.. Well actually the decision is no longer up to me but rather up to the school I interviewed with. I debated and I wrestled with it and finally decided that if I didnt interview for it that I would be kicking myself down the line. This is the job I trained for and the one that seems tailor made for me. Im just wrestling with all those mommy guilt problems. Sigh, men never seem to worry about any of this. I feel in a small way like I am abandoning H. He has no idea what might be coming and it will certainly rock his world. There is no way to really expalin to a child under 2. I also feel a bit selfish since I dont technically have to work and we were getting by fine without my income. I will start interviewing nannies next week so I hope I just find that person that makes all my fears melt away. Of course all of this worry and planning may be for nothing if the job offer doesn't come. Honestly I go back and forth between really wanting an offer and feeling like I will be relieved if one doe not come.